Written on July 6, 2008, but very encouraging to me where I am right now. I never knew it was possible to encourage oneself.
"I'm coming to understand my 'spiritual slump' to be more of a mysterious recognition of my human limitation. I am not self-sustainable. I am weak, but He is strong. I find my hope in His love and faithfulness, and I find comfort when I have faith in that love of His. I desire strength, not for selfish gain, but so I can convey to others the love they deserve to receive, the love of Christ, which I have received.
Lord, I desire to feel secure in my faith, but at the same time, I know that by feeling uncomfortable, I am more apt to rely on you and your strength that never fails.
Asking questions is not a terrible thing to do, but sometimes I should simply trust that you are good and faithful, despite my doubts, fears and insecurities."
God's power is true power, power that no human can ever attain. Relying on anyone but God would be foolish.